The loss exhausts her heart so much from any pain she faced, the news of her death had stabbed her heart, she was not prepared to accept this shock when her mother died without any warning and leaving her alone in this scary world. It was difficult for her to bear that shock, she no longer feels the joy and happiness as she used to feel before, she is living in a homeless reality. Perhaps she still did not accept the shock; That's why she was writing what her heart feels of moaning and nostalgia.
